In my prior post, I spoke of trying to help a young girl that was in a disturbing situation. This has really bothered me. I noticed since having that experience I have shifted into a hiding place. I have disconnected from having emotion about it and tried to push away thoughts about it. I have mentally put myself in a safe retreat. I think that it is interesting to see my process of actions. I began with being aware of the situation around the young girl. I chose to act and assist. Because of the area that I was in, I was not able to take the action, I would have liked, without higher authorization. I brought the situation to those with the authority to take action and there was not any effective action taken. I began to feel helpless and as a failure. I did not allow the consequences, of those with authority to act, to stay with them. Because they chose not to respond, to the situation at I hand, I felt that I was letting the young girl down. This led to thoughts of guilt and sadness. I began putting myself in her shoes and felt helpless. This led me to disconnect all emotion and shift into mechanical functioning.
It is extremely hard to share with another your emotion about a situation, so that they have the same response as you do. There are many times that I have wanted to transfer my knowledge or belief to another person, so that they would not make a certain mistake and to choose a different choice. I know that is not possible. But if it were, I would hope that my impact would be a change for good. I know that I could not help the young girl yesterday, but I hope as I continue with this website I will be able to be a force for good. As we go through our journey in life, choose to leave those you meet better than you found them. Smile, leave them with a compliment, or assist them in their journey.